Thursday, March 31, 2011

She smile in the rain…



Sometimes I feel very strange coz everytime the rain is falls,I will feel happy..i will go outside to see that..so calm and refreshing time..mybe I’m alone to feel this..but something miracle happen to me lately..it’s start with one rainy evening..i meet someone that really understand me..even for several hour..it at 29 Mac 2011 at 12.00 PM..at that time,I was on evening shift..so many patient telah dihantar ke OT..then someone ask me to go with her..she is someone that really impress me in short time..so, I go to Ot with her..then,it goes a heavy rain..i can see it clearly from a glass window..then I see she suddenly smile..and I ask her.. “why happen,why do u smile..?”then she say “I like to see a rain,it is nice” I was shocked..that answer…!!is same like someone important say to me..then,I go near her,she smile at me..she have a brighter eyes and charming smile..we see the rain together..it was very precious moment..like all my  memory with my ex is revived..it make my heart moving so fast..then,we send the patient..on the way return to ward..i request her something..”why not we hang up somewhere to see a rain,no work at ward either..”then she said “orite,my pleasure..”we spent time together about one hour..she told me everything about her life..i think,I like her,,,huhu.. I want know more about her..why I feel so comfortable around her..and I feel like she was too amazing..she get my attention.. it’s about time to return..then i ask her again..”do u free on weekend,if u do,contact me ok..”she replied “ I’m not sure,but if I’m free,I will go for u..”her smile make me so crazy…hope we will meet again..thanks fot that moment..i wish to see the rain agin with u…

Sunday, March 27, 2011

The truth is I’m hurt too..

Sorry for all the things that I did to u…coz I never realise that u in hurt..u always say that u are tough,but in fact u are fragile..why do u like me..i not understand that..what have I done to u..?? why u suddenly want to be with me badly..??we don’t know each other before…I don’t want u hurt anymore..i don’t want u cry anymore..please stop it..i’m hurt too..i hate this..u are so innoncent..caring and loving..mybe I’m not decided for u..so please don’t put an effort on me..run from me far away..or u will get hurt more..

Sorry for the time that I leave u alone..i don’t know what to say..when u cry,u always want me to be with u..u call me..and I try to make u comfort..i say that I will be with u,but in fact it juz a liar..i lie to u..i want u to stop crying..i have make so many gurl crying before…I repel that..i regret that..u must hate me as soon as possible.. must,,,!!or u will die…one drop of u tear can make me suffer..keep it with u..i not always can be on ur side..i’m not yours..
I think this a a time for me to go away..i want to end everything..for all the thing that I have done..good thing more than bad thing mybe…and all mistake that never forgiven..i very regret and I can feel the painful too..i want cry with my friend..but seem they just want share happiness more than sadness,so I will cry alone..i will die alone..sorry,I want to forget all about us..when we have all great time together,,running,walking,talking,sleeping,eating and all..i want to disappear…

Apa yang kita rasa..yang kita alami..semoga cepat hilang…bila hari esok datang..pergilah mencari arah hidup yang baru..dont like me..dont love me..dont even try to be near me..i want be like cactus..u will suffer from me..if u get me??u get nothing coz I don’t have something that u call LOVE.. Jangan menangis  lagi..dont remember my name..forget me… goodbye…mybe this is my last post..i don’t want to hurt anyone again…

The truth is,in my heart,there was someone that I miss so much…she is the one that I want..i try to forget but look like it not easy…if u read this,I want to tell u that I still remember u..everynite..everyday..i still keep u msg..from the first time we couple…until we clash.. sometimes I look at my handphone..i hope I have your num..i hope magical will happen and someday u will realize that..i don’t want u to clash with your boyfriend,just to makesure that u happy..i miss u voice,,,very badly..save me from this suffering…I wish to see u again soon….
 –SELAMAT TINGGAL-



Friday, March 18, 2011

Snap N Steady…!!

I spent my holiday with fully enjoy moment..i rare have time for blodding..sorry that..this ismy pics..hopes u will like it..  
\In the dark night,ther wes a little kind of light…








With my friend..crazy + happy + unbelievable……











Pantai paling cantik di dunia…haha



























Tu jer…no snap for a moment…2011..