Friday, January 21, 2011

Bila..bukan untuk diriku...


Bila esok tiada,semoga hari ini tetap dlm ingatan…bila aku x mampu beri semua yg kamu mahukan, aggap saja aku x berdaya…mungkin suatu masa kamu sedar,aku bkn hadir untuk penuhi kemahuanmu, tapi untuk mnemani harimu..hari yang kita lalui x begitu indah sejak kita mula knal..tapi aku x pnah harap lebih pada hubungan ini..dan kamu masih cuba melakar senyum palsu tanpa kamu sedar aku hampir terluka..hati ini seakan tercipta untuk kamu..setiap hari aku berharap kamu akan hadir.. jauh dari sudut hati,aku terfikir apa yg kamu fikirkan…cuba untuk memahami kamu..


Fahamilah aku bkn malaikat yang dpt menduga hatimu..juga bkn org yang mampu meredupkan kesedihan kamu..berikan aku sedikit ruang, masa, segalanya agar dapat aku menilai diri kamu..sebelum jauh aku serahkan cinta,perlu untuk aku tahu.. seberapa lama harus aku fahami.. jika kamu masih berdiam,,mungkin aku akan mula letih..dan mula menjauh dari kamu.. sempadan harapan xkan mampu menahan rasa putus asa..bila semua ini telah berlalu,maafkan aku.. mungkin aku bkn yang pertama bg kamu,tapi aku mahu jadi yang terakhir buat kamu..


Berikan aku satu kepastian..itu yang aku tunggu..bukan sekadar tafsiran sendiri,, andai kamu sudah berpaling dari aku,pergilah sebalum aku menemuimu lagi..akan aku padamkan semua kenangan yang kita cipta dulu..tiada satu pun darinya pernah terlakar kau milik ku.. perkenalan yang kita lalui hanya satu kesilapan.. carilah hidup yang lebih sempurna…jujurlah padaku bila kamu ada yang lain..cubalah lari dari hidupku sepantas mungkin.. sebelum terlewat,sebelum melewati dasar hatiku,berhentilah dari memberi harapan..jikalau telah datang saat ku pergi,semoga kamu tetap jalani hidup… aku x tahu apa yang kamu mahukan.. hanya satu permintaanku, terimalah saja diriku seadanya…ini saja yang membuat hidup aku lebih beerti….


Thursday, January 13, 2011

Never Like Before..

When I first talked to u.i didn’t know what to say,but the more we talked, the more my heart gave away..But now when I think of u,and how u changed my life..i have imagine that I won’t be alone coz he there for me..a day without light will never happen..u light up my day,as if u were the sun..u are brighter that anything..u are that sense of completion when my life is difficult.. u are my strength and wisdom..and the keeper of my heart..whose grip never weakens even we are apart..
i think of u all day and dream of u all night..then every night I wish that u could hold me tight.. u are always on my mind no matter what time of day..even when I shouldn’t,I think about u anyway.. and when I think of u this much,this day seems so long..and all the time we spent apart,just seems so wrong..u are my special gift sent up above..sent me from heaven..sent for me to love.. Thanxs for u smile..and u light that fills my dreams..u always make it matter how dark it seems..
when the last time I talked to u..u never see my face..u not talking to me..but I can see your tears..i can see your that time,I hold your make u comfort..but it look just an acting coz there were someone behind u..behind all of this,u deceive me for many time..i afraid to know it..

This what i feel most right is not easy like fantasy..what about u??

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Hopes n Light..

A new year clock sound so a wind that flow all ours dat case, nothing can turn back..wishing to start a new life with a new vision..thank you for god..for make me still alive.. for make me a life person,so that i can see all my parent and still can be a good person.. mybe one day,i should write all my friends name,so that i can remember them.. Don’t worry,all ours memory from primary to high school will stay forever in my heart and mind even we fall at different path now....i believe that we are born to be together... just sometimes we dont realise that we need it.. and sometimes it’s too late to realise that..i can hear your voice..i can image your face...clearly,so bright like a snow..

A new year clock was starting.. i cant waste my time long i have sleep.. nothing can help me except myself..i hope can life for more year.. to c all my friend hold a responsibility as a parent... to make my dream came a wish since i kid.. as a promise to my lovely parent that i was a good guy.. then i try my best in every single part to make the impact that can shine all the road that i taken...not just a nonsense dream,but a promise... i can’t give up anymore.. i must shine in short time and show all my will of heart.. every second flow so fast..i can’t miss them even for a while.. just keep running until i tired... and when that thing happen,i will never give up....!!

A new year clock almost over....i hope it will not happen.. let this year never end,so that i can find more about myself..i’m not ready to be adult..make me teenager forever..i want share my memory with all my friend.. even i try to stop the time,mybe it just don’t work like i want.. at that time,i feel lucky because have given a chance to the end,nothing is precious than a memory that we have even it go wrong sometimes...let it go and free yourself...i don’t expect much in my life,but since i’m here,lets keep it u all....... (^.^)
For a year I have been locked in my own darkness..from that situation that u leave to me..from that I learn to be right now…in my dream,I still longing for someone like u..mybe just like u to save my life.. I wonder who is that person.. but i dont say that i need u again...someon will replaced u and i looking forward for that dear.. 1000 years she will be better than u...dont ever turn back on me..


HAPPY BESDAY  …..!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bersyukur pada ALLAH coz still give a chance for my grand father to alive n kicking.. ni masa celebrate besday atuk kat  past year..lau x silap hari sabtu r..rmai family n cousin n uncle n auntie n nephew…sape-sape jelah yg bkenaan mai..x syre besday yg ke berapa tp mybe around 70 lbh kot..but still strong.. My mum and auntie prepare a “SURPRISE,,!!” party  for him.. It start from that morning…my autie with my sister go out for buy some item…they go to Giant at Kijal… before that, she went to TATI coz her son studied there and it’s holiday…so they shopping at market…. I just sitting at home with my mother.. This juz like a big mission…haha… I was assign in Team B and they was Team, Team B prepare a barang like periuk..n alatan memasak yg x diketahui…  Team A having with problem coz masa nak cari barang,they terserempak with my grandfather…they keep running.. Lastly,they are safe..mission not kantoi yet..

Dlm ko 2 ptg…Misi dijalankan with carefull… There are a lot of food n kuih-muih we made,,,such as  tat telur,agar-agar,n pudding..very delicious…in a blink of eyes,I sempat rembat tat telur without terkantoi…haha…my favourite..then,all my keturunan came..ada yg dekat,jauh,kecik n besar…semua fill in the blank kot…hehe…so,we prepare a table n make some decoration.. I go to town to buy a balloon..and some present…it’s juz a Cadbury Chocolate…no need for grant present lor.. Team Kids ditubuhkan for blow a balloon..they run a mission with enjoy…mybe after kne marah coz too many balloon yg pecah..haha.. Lastly,waiting for my Grandfather to come….along with her wife.. around 5 pm..we all wait…then,he comes with white painted Kancil.. when he walk to us..we all juz shout
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY…………………!!!!”
He juz numb and smile,terkasima 
sebentar kot…

My atuk n wife…both potong kek…yg kat blakang tu pelakon tambahan jer…sekadar hiasan….hehe

My keturunan..ramai tol kan…baru r meriah…